poetry

Death of the projected self

As the gap grows between the self you are and the self you thought you would be, Your envisioned self dies the death of a million cuts, Like a drawing incrementally erased from a white board. You are strong where he is weak, Grieving where he is alight with fancy, Alive where he is dead,… Continue reading Death of the projected self

Personal writing, poetry

Choices, the heart, and God

Shall I go to the bar tonight, Or stay in and read? Shall I drop out of college, Or finish? Shall I propose to my girlfriend? Find another? Vote my conscience? Abstain?             Beneath these decisions, there is the part of us that has already chosen; if we try to convince ourselves of our choices… Continue reading Choices, the heart, and God

essays, Personal writing

What it means to bow to the Buddha

A few years ago while reading a foundational text on Buddhism I had the first of two spiritual experiences with respect to the tradition: every new insight I read, it seemed like I was remembering rather than discovering. That is, it felt like I had been a Buddhist before. I asked a psychic about this… Continue reading What it means to bow to the Buddha