Colorado College's Cutler Hall The morning after I graduated from Colorado College, I walked around campus and noticed that the buildings had changed. It wasn’t that new construction had taken place—rather, it was as though some symbolic layer of meaning had been removed from the buildings, their earthen reality revealed. Apart from the purpose the… Continue reading On the waxing and waning of symbolic meaning
Author: JHB
The green 5.13
The "v4 rest" In the video, I begin climbing swiftly along a v5 boulder problem that travels from the right of the wall to the left. Along the way, I piston myself up on a coiled leg and snatch a moderate sloper, then transition along several less forgiving crimps and into the corner of the… Continue reading The green 5.13
Chiron in Cancer and my lifelong struggle with relationships
When I was conceived, my parents’ marriage was already at risk of dissolving, and one of my parents has characterized me as a “save the marriage” type baby. Recently, I have thought of what sorts of messages I might have intuited even from the womb: the sense that home itself was unstable, impermanent, that relationships… Continue reading Chiron in Cancer and my lifelong struggle with relationships
Reflecting on the Saturn Return
The marble-workers
On the bench they sat in a single row, working their marbles. The bench stretched in either direction for miles–perhaps an infinity–and to each inhabitant was allotted a single marble, a clear sphere speckled with dots and striated with lines that the individual rolled over in their palm, trying to wipe clean. Over time, this… Continue reading The marble-workers
Jackson Holzberg Buckley 