When I was conceived, my parents’ marriage was already at risk of dissolving, and one of my parents has characterized me as a “save the marriage” type baby. Recently, I have thought of what sorts of messages I might have intuited even from the womb: the sense that home itself was unstable, impermanent, that relationships… Continue reading Chiron in Cancer and my lifelong struggle with relationships
Tag: homelessness
The impossibility of self-starting and hatred for the homeless
In the 2000 film American Psycho, there is a scene in which Patrick Bateman, a wealthy Wall Street employee, condescends to a homeless person in an alley. "Do you have any idea what a fucking loser you are?" Bateman rhetorically asks the homeless person. He then kills the homeless person and a nearby dog in… Continue reading The impossibility of self-starting and hatred for the homeless
The authentic self and the illusion of the academy
While living in Colorado Springs between 2015 and -16, I wrote a novel on power, alienation, and education. I never gave it a title, but the work describes a high-powered Academy where children are taken away from their families, then trained in a series of exercises that culminate in the ability to “Produce,” meaning manifest… Continue reading The authentic self and the illusion of the academy
Jackson Holzberg Buckley 