I In summer of 2017, I had a conversation with a guru about my life’s purpose. Toward the end of a session with my therapist, I had complained about work, saying that I never felt fully connected with or satisfied by what I was doing. “It sounds like you’re searching for your purpose,” she said.… Continue reading “What’s my purpose?”
Category: Personal writing
Impostor syndrome as spiritual dilemma
Probably as many as 70% of graduate students suffer from impostor syndrome, and I am one. According to a cursory internet search, impostor syndrome is a “psychological pattern in which an individual doubts their accomplishments and has a persistent internalized fear of being exposed as a ‘fraud.’” For me, this fear centers almost entirely around… Continue reading Impostor syndrome as spiritual dilemma
A tale of two dreams
This past Thanksgiving, I had the most intriguing dream of my life. In the first part of the dream, I was explicitly seeking to find “God” by flying to the north pole. I was being pursued by two suited men, who also flew, so this part of the dream was much like “The Matrix”—I would… Continue reading A tale of two dreams
Leadership as illusion
It used to feel imperative to me that I be a leader. I used to think there were people in life that were followers, and people that were leaders, and that it was better to be the latter than the former. Mostly, I think this vision was bound up in notions of masculinity for me.… Continue reading Leadership as illusion
Politics, breakdown, and the Age of Aquarius
In light of recent events, I wanted to write a short post on where I think politics in the U.S. is heading, and why. As will become clear, some of my views derive from unorthodox sources. People have wondered why there seems to be a decreasing interest in politics, whether represented by 2014’s stunningly low… Continue reading Politics, breakdown, and the Age of Aquarius
Jackson Holzberg Buckley 